Tuesday, July 26, 2011

{Always a Place in my Heart}

There is no denying...

That March is going to be empty without you, little one...

Each time I walk past the tiny, precious newborn clothes, my heart sinks ~ I can imagine you inside them...

When I close my eyes, I can feel you in my arms...

Yesterday I saw a glowing, expectant Momma, I thought of you and wished that you were with us still...

There is no denying that I will miss sewing all those blankets, baby slings and cloth diapers that were on our list to make just for you...

I will miss your dirty blowouts...I would give anything to be able to clean you up...to give you a bath...

There's no denying that when the car seats are put away, I'll miss the one that would've been yours...

That when Laura's out of diapers, I'll want to change just one more...

There's no denying that I'll miss rocking and singing you to sleep when Momma's running errands and we're home alone...

That I will miss watching you learn to smile, clap, walk and then talk...

I will miss you talking on the top of your lungs just to be heard over the rest of us talker's...

When milk doesn't spill anymore, I'll wish that you were here to spill some...

The truth is, that even though I'm choosing to be thankful that you're with Jesus, I'll always miss you...and I'll always love you. When I'm asked how many siblings I have, I'll say 8 and remember you...you will never be forgotten.

Sweetie pie, you will always hold a place in your big sister's heart. And when I get to Heaven, I'm going to find you, somehow, someway, and give you a giant hug...one that I've been wanting to give you since God blessed us with the very thought of you.

30 comments:

Rebecca said...

Jenna, the Lord is going to bless you. I am so sorry that this happened. Remember that I will be praying for you.
Blessings,
~Rebecca

Elizabeth said...

That's such a sweet post, Jenna. I know that even for the short time he/she was here on earth, he/she was very dearly loved, treasured and cherished by all of you. :) I love you and my heart is with you, dear.

Love,
Elizabeth

Johanna Grace said...

Oh Jenna! This made me cry! I'm so sorry for your family's loss,

God Bless you all!
Johanna

Nela said...

*sniff* That. was. beautiful.

"May the Lord bless you and keep you; the Lord make his face shine upon you and be gracious to you; the Lord turn his face toward you
and give you peace. Amen,”~ Numbers 6:24-26

Trini said...

You made me cry, Jenna...I'm so sorry!!! If this is any consolation to you, your little sibling is in heaven watching over you with the Lord, waiting to meet you!!!

Felicity said...

It's is such a comfort to know that we can be with our families for Eternity. God bless you, and your baby sibling (girl or boy?). Such a sweet post. :)

Felicity
{simple-and-elegant.blogspot.com}

Felicity said...

It is*

Elizabeth said...

Oh Jenna,

You make me cry!!! I am so sorry for you...I know how much you were looking forward to this new little one...we are so praying for you and your family! May God continue to give you his peace.

Mrs. Cuthbertson

Kiera said...

While I can't say I know just how you feel(sense I don't)I can say I feel for you,and am praying for you.

The truest test of faith is in the trials.

May YHWH Spread his love on all of you.

Kiera

Rose said...

Oh Jenna, my heart breaks for you and your family. Your testimony of thankfulness and trust is amazing but no more so than the testimony of your pain. I'll be praying for you all!

~Rose K.

Mikailah said...

I am still praying for you and your family.
Be encouraged, and blessed.
Mikailah

Lydia said...

I will be praying for you and your family. I know just how it feels to lose a baby sibbling and also nearly lose your mom. Last December my Mom was expecting a baby, the baby died and Mom almost did as well from loss of blood.

Love and prayers,
Lydia

Miss Antoinette K. said...

Dearest Jenna,
You have and your family have been in my thoughts and prayers this week and only wish I could give you a *BIG* hug and pray with you in person my dear.

Your post was so sweet and brought me to tears (bitter sweet ones).

What a blessing you are my friend, and though I don't e-mail or post often, know I think about you and pray for you and hope to be able to write again very soon! <3

Rest in our Savior's arms my dear, and cast your cares on Him, because he cares for you and your family so much!

Sending much love, blessings, and prayers you way!

Soli Deo Gloria,

Miss Antoinette

Jenna said...

Dear Jenna,
Oh, how my heart goes out to you and your family. I am so sorry for your loss. I am blessed by your sweet submissive spirit to the Lord's will through this difficult time. My prayers are with you.

Blessings,
Jenna

DeeMama said...

Heart felt prayers to you and your family! May that little one be sweetly cooing to the Lord's sweet lullaby!


In His Name Alone!
Dee
http://awellfedsoul.blogspot.com/

Linda Stubbs said...

You are one precious daughter and sister!!!!!! Your little sister will be forever remembered.....thankful that earth is only a speck in time.......Heaven FOREVER! I will meet her there. Praying for your precious family.

Hugs, Linda

Our Journey said...

I read this post today, and it made me tear. It has been two days since we found out that our little baby in Samantha's womb no longer had a heart beat.

It is painful, but God's grace is truly sufficient.

We know we will see our baby again, but it still hurts. Please pray for Samantha, for her emotionally and physically. Thank you for your prayers.

We will be praying for your family as well. If we can be of any help to you or your family please let us know. Let your mother know that she has prayers all the way in New Mexico for her.

Adam and Samantha

AH said...

Our family too has angel babies! 3 to be exact. Each one has been hard to let go but it has been sweet to know that they are in the arms of the Father. My parents knew the gender of 2 of them but went ahead and named all 3 so they could talk about the babies with us as a family! It was nice to have a name to talk about with family member that was not with us in person! I also have two nephews in Jesus' arms as well. Shiloh and Solomon! I miss all 5 dearly but I like you look forward to hugging them in heaven!
Praying for you and your family!

Elizabeth Joy said...

Dear sister Jenna,

We both have a beautiful baby sibling dancing for the LORD now... love you much. <3 Praying for you!

Carra said...

Oh... I'm so sorry... please know I am praying for you... and Adam and Samantha... a note here, I've been trying to comment on your blog, but can't due to some blogger trouble...
I am praying for all of you, each and everyone. I don't know what it is to bear such a loss, but it is a fear in the heart of every woman and girl.

Please know I am praying for you all, and Jesus is always there.
Love Carra

April said...

Jena; I'm so, so sorry! Life is so precious...and children are so precious. The Lord Jesus gives and takes away that that He chooses. We can not often understand why He does the things He does but we must just trust Him; He always works for our good....I'm praying for you and your family!

Kristin Yerke said...

Oh Jenna. I'm so sorry for you. I could tell how excited you were about the baby. I'm praying for you and your family. Keep looking to Jesus.

Sherry in MI said...

I just recently found out about your family's loss. So sad for you all.

Love,
Mrs. Miedema

Miss Toria said...

Dear sweet Jenna-

My heart aches for you, because I have those same thoughts every single day. It's been four years since God took our little baby whom we called Isaiah, and I still have that ache to hold him. I wish he was running around with his cousin- they would've shared nearly the same birthday as both momma and my sister-in-law were due the same month (actually, the same due date...March, too). My heart ached when I packed away the maternity clothes we had purchased and laughed over with eager anticipation. There's still a baby-sized hole in my heart. There's still a room that should've been HIS.

I asked Miss Jocelyn for your e-mail address (I hope you don't mind) and I sent you an e-mail that I hope you'll respond to (I believe it was your dad's address?). You are in my thoughts and prayers!

Blessings,
Miss Toria
www.purelittleladiesministry.com

Crista Moriah said...

Oh, I'm so sorry Jenna! It must be such a big heartache to bear, even though you know that you will see your angel baby sibling one day in Heaven. I can't imagine what it must be like! As I wrote you in my email, my mom did have some miscarriages, but it was when I was a lot younger. I will continue lifting you in prayer!

((hugs))

~Moriah

Katie said...

That is so very sweet! I'm praying for you. I went through something like that a year ago with the loss of my baby cousin. God gives peace and comfort. He will be with you. And He's holding your sibling in His arms as we speak.

Jessica said...

you and your precious family have been on my heart so much... know how many times I have wanted to just run over to your house and give you a big big hug and we could go and talk in the barn. keep your eyes on Jesus dear friend <3

Victorianlady8 said...

Thank you Jenna, for sharing your heart with us. We all hurt with you and your precious family and Mama! Our love and prayers for all the hurt and the heartache. Jesus will have your precious one in His Arms and will hand your loved one to you when you see Him. You will be together again!...and Oh what a blessed day that will be! Love and hugs mumofeight

Miss Morgan said...

Oh Jenna, I know this comment comes a little late, but please know that Jesus sees and cares. He will wrap loving arms around you and your family. May the Lord bless and keep you,

Morgan

Mykaela said...

Hello Jenna,
I realize that this was quite a while ago that you wrote this post...I haven't visited your blog recently, so I don't know if you will get this, but I wanted to share with you that I can feel this with you. I am the oldest of seven, and I will never forget the day my mom told me with tears in her eyes that she had lost the baby. That was when I was around 7 years old, and I didn't feel it as much then as when it happened a second time when I was 11. It has always seemed so amazing to me that I have two more siblings waiting for me on the other side. Tears still fill my eyes when I think of them in Jesus' arms. Thank you for your testimony of grace. God bless you and your family! Love is Christ,
Mykaela McDowell
16 years old, Oak Harbor, Washington